[ukpharmgrad]

I hate my pre-reg placement. I have hated it from day one. Here is some of the things that have been happening.

On the first day, the guy acted like I was so stupid. He gave me the job knowing that I had never worked in a pharmacy before. Also I left during my fourth year at uni and came back a year and a half years later. So many things were forgotten. He knew this too. He kept piling work on top of me. This was just the first day. Granted it was very busy (just my luck) but he could have been more understanding instead of tutting and rolling his eyes. Whenever I do anything wrong he laughs at me and has encouraged the others who work in the shop to do so too.

When he was ill he kept coughing and sneezing without closing his mouth. He has dandruff and is always scratching himself. Sometimes has bad-breath which stinks up the whole store. There is food that has been there for a long time. He is the dirtiest man I have ever come across. I confronted the guy on the Wednesday of my first week and told him that I didn't appreciate the way he was treating me. He said that i don't deserve any respect and 'you must earn it'. Fair enough.

But after that day, I have been made fun of because of my weight (even though the last prereg guy was fat too), called a he/she, a lesbian and a thief. Whenever I use the till to serve patients, him and his wife look over my shoulder. I have made errors on the till but whenever I do, I would always call him or his wife over immediately. Whenever the till is low, I am stared at and made to feel uncomfortable. I tried to ignore this but one day, his wife was working instead and at the end of the day, the till was low. I had called her over before because of an error that I had made. We wrote it down to remind ourselves what had happened. So expecting her to tell what had happened she didn't. When I went to get my coat at the back of the store, I heard her and 2 others saying that I had taken it. The most ridiculous thing is that I am fortunate enough to have parents who have worked hard to be able to be in the position to help me out and if they were to openly accuse me of stealing, I have the means to sue.

The only reason he would call me a thief is because he is a racist. One of the girls who works there even called me a black b*tch. Also, I have to wear a lab coat even if it is hot. I didn't have a lab coat before and so had to wear his for a week. His was so dirty and smelly it was unbelievable. It was so embarrassing and ofcourse he didn't admit that it was his coat. Now apparently I stink and ofcourse he uses it as an excuse to sometimes not bathe or brush his teeth because I get the blame.

They don't always say these things to me but they say it loud enough for me to hear. Or if I walk over to a group of people talking, they would stop. If I walked away, they would then start laughing. If I complain, I am told lies and that I am imagining it and told to leave if I don't like it.

I also suffer from back pain whenever I am stressed and need to sit down often. Whenever I sit down he starts shouting at me and asks me why I am sitting down. Then when I say my back hurts, he laughs at me.

He disrespects me in front of the customers, rolls his eyes at them when I make errors and so they laugh at me. He b*tches to them about me (I have asked some of them and they confirmed this)

As a result of all this bullying, I have taken many days off and I have been late 4 times. My work has suffered which ofcourse re-inforces the fact that I am stupid to him. I am too scared to ask him for help or even go over to the customers to talk to them. I have lost all confidence in myself. I thought I was doing well. Sometimes he will tell me that I have learnt more than most pre-reg people have done by this time but then if anyone is present he patronises me and says that I wouldn't get any competences signed off at all.

I feel like there is no one to turn to. I have spoken to him about his conduct and I have been threatend with the sack. I am scared to lose my job but yet I am terrified to go to work. Also, he has had 10 years experience in pharmacy and I feel his side would always be taken. He is also a funny guy and everyone likes him and so how can I prove what type of a person he is and none of the staff would stick up for me. I spoke to someone from the society and I was crying to them on the phone. I told her to have a word with him and she did. But she then phoned me back and sounded like she believed everything he had said. He told her that I was disrespectful (not true) and that I was always late (which is true but he doesn't tell her why) and that I didn't have many compentence sheets (he has never looked at my competence sheets at all). He is such a good liar. He is able to mix the truth with lies.

I cry every single day I get home and on the weekends and I believe I may be clinically depressed. I don't know what to do. Am I just being sensitive? I am going to the doctor on monday to see what is happening with my back and head.